Back with a post!

Assalamualaikum,
Wow! Its been ages since my last post. I have so much to tell in this one post about whats happening between the gap of my unupdated-blog and my life right now. To be honest, half of it was a mess, but another half  is fine. First of all, I moved to Sekolah Menengah Teknik Kuantan on 5th of february, did I ever told you that? Oh wait, my last post was ages ago, lmao. Yep! I transfered to kuantan and I think its a good decision, well now it is.

The first time I entered that school which is on 5th of february, I thinked of;
- How am I going to study with a new environment and friends
- Boarding school is such a killer
- I should've apply to Teknik KL which is nearer than Kuantan
- How am I going to survive without a single old friend around me
- This is a mess, I gotta suite myself with this place
- How do I start conversation with someone I dont know when all I can do is cry (on registration day)
- Dad, can we turn back time so I dont have to transfer?
- I REGRET!
Funny how thats all I can think of, when the one who made me transfer to a new school is myself. Yep, Its my own decision to move to another school because I WANT TO CHANGE MYSELF, I used to play all the time, I used to fool people too much, I am never serious, not until the examination is around the corner. But in my new school, I'm totally different. I'm not who I was back then, I mean... I'm changing into someone better I guess? There, their people are quite nice. I mean, really, they are. (Right after you get to know them day by day). It took me 5 months to understand them. It's hard to understand someone you don't expect to met. I'm from a totally different place and Kuantan is soooo different than Shah Alam. Believe me! One day, you're going to discover it, you're gonna get through with it because you can't run from things you're going to head for years! Alhamdulillah, syukur that I'm totally a different person now. Not that different though, I still cant' control myself whenever I'm mad, I do sarcasms like I used to do back then and that habit will NEVER, EVER, EVER decreases.

The first time I get into my room (we call it dorm), there are another 15 people in the room. One of them met her old friends, so she's fine.. while me.. no one is from Shah Alam and thats the scariest nightmare I've ever faced in my whole entire life! I had to suite myself with people that doesnt even think outside the box, their thinking are way different than mine. But thank god, there's 3 girls from Kuala Lumpur, no.. not precisely from KL. One of them is from Kota Damansara and the other two is from Hulu Langat & Ampang. Well, we hate that place. 4 of us do think that they're all shallow-minded people.. but all we do is ignore and just stick to our intentions on why do we transfer to SMT Kuantan. But after few days, we made a discussion and everything is fine after that night. Until today, so many crazy things happened!

All I can say is, Alhamdulillah for who I am right now, for what course I'm currently studying now & to my family + friends who never stop on giving hopes and supports! Boarding school is not that bad though, All you need is to interact and get to know new people from a total different place & your dormates + all the other students. In Shaa Allah, in the minute you woke up and everywhere you go, your life is all about meet & greet. Which is fun? Haha.

Genuine Emotion

Assalamualaikum,

So, what im going to share tonight is what I've been feeling, what im annoyed at, and whom did I annoyed with, once I hate someone, I will hate everything about them even at their littlest thing or mistake, everything they do annoys me and wrong to me. But I dont accuse and assume all of Palestine People come and go, the one I hate now might be the one I need the most in future and the one I need the most for now might be the one I am better off without. Well, I am better off dead because all I do is hating, I have tried my best to push away my ego and also my anger even when I am mad as fuck. Here it goes, wait that's not the main point why I am updating my blog tonight haha, the story is in the next paragraph.

Dont you get tired and sick of those people who think they're right and they're the most clever human being in this planet. I mean, come on. Did someone ever gave you an advice when the advice actually suits for themselves, and did someone ever gave you an advice and think its easy for you to take his/her advice especially when you're confused, tell me, is it easy for you to make a decision when you're in hurry? Well, same situation for someone who is depressed,  confused and what ever, everything that is related to stress. based on an idiom, "you can lead a horse to water but you cant make it drink". To be clear or more detail, it means you can persuade and comfort people with your advice and positive thoughts but you cant make them listen 100% and take your advice.

Isn't it annoying when someone you respect take you for granted. I mean, did anyone correct you when you corrected them because they dont want to feel embarrassed by you when all you want to do is to help them and not to embarrass them? damn, this situation suck the most, suck to the core. As an example when you said "float like a butterfly, sting like a bee" yes, it is a quote by Muhammad Ali the boxer. Then, someone tried to correct you by saying, "hey, butterfly fly away and not float" imagine if this ever happen to you. You'll be like... what the fuck? are you trying to prove to people that you're actually good in english because all this while people know you're dumb as fuck. I mean, thats a quote, who fucking change a quote? Thats so disrepectful if you change a quote. So I watched a movie "6 days 7 nights" and im confused with the title so I said it should be 6 days 5 nights so they go home might be in the morning, afternoon or evening. Suddenly, an ugly beast said "what? Its correct, they went home at nigt if its 6 days 7 nights" I was like, hello are you okay? Days are supposed to be more than the nights for any campaign. It is so annoying when someone whom people look with full of disgrace try to correct you when you once corrected them in the past, so they planned a so called revenge to prove you that they're clever too. When the fact is, they look so dumb. Even dumb than the 3 stooges.

Its almost 11.30pm and today is sunday. Tomorrow is monday, ah god, it is school day and I am forced to go to school since one of my friends are moving next year, unfortunately,  shes not going to stay at the same school for next year. I hope tomorrow will be the best day in my whole entire life, I am so lifeless thanks bye.

Assalamualaikum, may Allah bless your life and soul. May Allah gather you with all the people in jannah and push you away from the hell fire. May we passed the As-Sirat and always pray to Allah swt. Never stop du'a because Allah is never too far away, Al-Fatihah to all of our brothers and sisters in Syria, Palestine and other countries that is suffering from  Israel's attack. Amin.

Rants

Assalamualaikum,

and finally PMR is over. I hope you're in the pink of health. Everyone are so excited about the end of PMR but not me, I mean yes i've been waiting for this time to come for so long, I thought it would be fun but damn I was wrong. The life after PMR is so lifeless. I usually do revisions after school and get ready for additional classes, but not anymore. I felt so empty, so I decided to go back to my world, where fun begins which is, going back to habbo retros, facebook, audition sea, blackshot and everything that's meaningless. Thats just how I roll, no matter how meaningless or pointless it is, I will always work it out. I've thrown and abolish that attitude of mine before the examination but I have no choice now since it's over. Its like im bombarded with emptiness and boredom, drowned in the laziness where everything is just so hard for me. I'm pretty sure i will get sick of my situation one day. If it is not about some of my friends, I wouldn't update my blog, Ahh I feel so empty, I cant even thinking about what should I share.

Oh yes, did anyone ever look down on you, what i mean is, before this, did anyone ever look down on you like, they think they're the smartest among all of the people in the world, and they keep on demand you, they think they're so cool, when they're actually not? Haha, they should feel a chagrin feelings of embarrassment for themselves. Don't let anybody think you're nothing but a dirt, don't let anyone knock or let you down, if they ever did that, you don't want to stay back, dont you? Fight with confide. No mercy. You  should live by few principals. For example, I live by a principal which is preventation is better than cure. I guess I dont have to explain that, I never let anyone beat the shit out of me, I might be wrong at times but I always state the facts. Since they're a shallow minded type of person, they didn't agree with what i stated and told me that I will never admit what I did by turning the tables. Make them feel intimidated or apprehensive. I would like to share a quote with you by a Comedian, which is "There's a reasion its called 'girls gone wild' and not 'women gone wild'. When girls go wild, they show their tits. When women go wild, they kill men and rown their kidsin a tub." I might be controlling, abusive, misogynistic, disparaging and dismissive, but I won't act that way if no one made me want to do that, unless if I had to. If anyone ask for forgiveness from you, ask them, what does the laws and polices stands for?

Take care x

Expressing

Assalamualaikum!

It's been a very busy day, so many difficulties and miserable things happened. An unexpected thing happened on my second day of raya, I'm goosebumped. Anyways, I gained a quote which is "when you point your finger at somebody else, four fingers are pointing back at you" that defined us, human being. Well sometimes, we, human being, insult and mock others, don't tell me you never did that? Okay so, in future or maybe in your past, you hurt someone without thinking about their feelings but then, one day you'll advice someone to respect others because they have feelings too which is four fingers pointing back at yourself, hypocrite, selfish, heartless and whatever, human nature i assume. I can't tell you that you suite that quote so much because I did that once too, I did a thing that pointed back at myself, aha such an embarrassment but who cares because all of us experienced that.

There's a thing that i've been thinking, it didn't make any sense because well you know human being do such things without others knowing why did they do that, but then others keep on assuming which is kinda stupid, why do people have to be so negative? Like when you insulted someone because you really really really hate everything about them but then, they assume that you're just jealous. Wow, face palm, *knock my head on the wall thousand of times because I can't stand some of the human being instinct out there*. I don't know if some of you insulted someone because you're jealous of them but when i insulted someone, i hate everything about them. Sometimes, they're not as clever as you thought, assuming someone who hates you so much are jealous of you is plainly stupid. I mean, cant you think? Why do they insult if they dont hate everything about you? Who the fuck insulted others because they're jealous and because they cant have what you had before?

I'm sorry if I hurt any of you or as if you are related to this post, well sometimes human being won't say such things if they never experienced those unexaggerated things they assumed, they'll claim others onto it. Some things are harder than it used to be.

Random

Assalamualaikum!

Wow, its been a while. I've always wanted to create a new post but I dont really have much time these days. I'm not busy studying but I'm busy doing something I must do, I cant even resist it, well cant tell ya what it is cus I dont even know what did I do before haha. Its the 4th day of Hari Raya Aidilfitri. I hope i'm not too late to wish Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri Maaf Zahir Dan Batin to all of the muslims around the world and to some of the muslims I know,  I'm sorry if I hurt your feelings, sorry for all of my wrongdoings. Blame it all on me, not my religion for being quite rude sometimes.

There's nothing I can really say but, I hope you're enjoying your life.